The
Midnight Visitor
Icarus is at the door with his sodden wings and peeling skin, his head
full of flames and his hands twitching with fine adjustments. He's
formal as a vampire, so I invite him in and offer salve and temazepam,
a soft sofa to coddle his bruised ambitions, and a revised edition of
The Boys' Own Book of Flight. Over steaming tea, I tell him about the
Montgolfiers and the Wrights, and I'm pretty sure I mispronounce Hans
Joachim Pabst von Ohain, though Icarus – polite as the wartime BBC and
fluent in all the languages of myth – doesn't correct me. He's spent
two thousand years swimming to the Mediterranean surface and is
understandably tired, but when we turn at last to Eugene Newman Parker,
his eyes spark with an apparent magnitude of –26.74. For all his
centuries and accumulated stories, he reminds me of myself when I was
younger, hurling my dizzy head at the sky and burning as I fell. I'd
show him my own scars but it's way too late, so I make up the spare
bed, though we both know neither of us will sleep.
Liminal
The hospital atrium keeps its own counsel. It keeps its house in order
and it keeps its orders simple and to the point. It keeps its points of
reference uncluttered and clearly signed: defibrillators and waiting
trolleys carry the indentations of lives cradled and passed back to the
love of sweet cities, and yellow lines demarcate safety should the
whole world burn down. On the verge of sleep, the atrium is an aviary,
with stained glass birds lifting from modernist angles, rebalancing
inside and outside, enticing hope in all its feathered glory. On the
verge of waking, it's an airport arrivals lounge, with everyone's names
writ large on cards held at chest height by restless relatives, cab
drivers, and business associates eager to clinch carbon-neutral deals.
The only sounds are a baby uttering its first word and a machine that
reassures us all is well, life goes on, and there's a place for
everyone beneath the huge glass sky.
Towards
a Checklist of Abandoned Bedsits
Calm takes the next seat, places its cool hand on mine, and assures me
there's no cause for alarm. It recommends taking stock and, before you
can say My word! we're in a
lop-sided room at the top of a town house, stacked with toppling boxes
and lit by a bare bulb that resembles a sad cow's eye. There's an
inventory printed on human skin, with a rusty-nibbed pen and a well of
tears, and when I open the first box it winces audibly. Inside is a
sheaf of phone calls, each packed tight with foolish words, clear as
broken windows, edges sharp as the nights they were spoken. There is,
inevitably, a ticking clock, so I start to count the minutes spent
fumbling coins into call boxes and each occasion upon which I stumbled
home to find the furniture rearranged and the carcass of a sad cow
slung across the bed, its eyeless head accusing me of unforgivable
transgressions. And I realise that, between my stuttering heartbeat and
the sputtering engine of language, I misheard the all-important
introduction. Harm pulls up a crate and sits to face me, placing its
cold hand across my eyes. My word,
it says, is law.
Oz Hardwick is a York-based poet, editor and academic, whose
most recent collection is A Census of Preconceptions (SurVision
Books, 2022). He is co-editor, with Anne Caldwell, of The Valley Press Anthology of Prose Poetry
(Valley Press, 2019) and Prose
Poetry in Theory and Practice (Routledge, 2022). He is Professor
of Creative Writing at Leeds Trinity University. His website is
www.ozhardwick.co.uk